Sorry things have been a little crazy around here and I haven't
had time to write so I am going to try and catch up soon but today I want to
talk about a problem that I have almost every day. I suffer from anxiety. My
anxiety can range from very minimal to pretty bad. I don't really remember when
my anxiety started, I am sure I had it growing up just don't remember it as
much as after I was taken out of my house. After getting taken out of the home
the problem became much worse, there are some times I have a hard time leaving
my house or going places like Wal-Mart. For someone who has never suffered from
anxiety its hard to explain how you feel and make you understand because when
you are not having anxiety the it seems so stupid that you would worry about certain
things and what not. Sometimes I have things that trigger my anxiety (that I am
aware of) and sometimes I don't really know what cause it. Tonight for some
reason is a night I don't know what is causing it but know that it is pretty
bad. I just feel so on edge, shaky, and just that anxious feeling. Its nights
like tonight that I really struggle with because anxiety SUCKS! It can really
control your whole life. I normally do pretty well and getting it under control
and not letting it affect me for very long but sometimes that doesn't happen.
If you suffer with anxiety I am sorry! So enough of that!
So guys I want to know what you guys what to read about on this
blog. I really want to do this not just for my healing, but also for awareness.
If there is a room of 4 girls statistic show one of them has been raped and 1
in 6 males. I want to know if you want to read about how I have gotten to where
I am today, things that are healing for me, or day today issues that I deal
with (like anxiety) and how they affect me. Let me know! Thank you guys all so
much for reading my blog and sharing it with others it means so much to me. I
have always said that if I had to go through what I have went through there has
to be a reason and that I want to share my story in order to maybe help someone
else who may be going through something similar know that they can over come
it.
